13 weeks {1 day}

Well..its my 13 week update.

Ive been doing not to badly.
Im starting to not be able to sleep on my Tummy. Sometimes I wake up and Im laying on my tummy and its like..."Ow. Who put that there?" So yeah..its starting to get uncomfortable.

I have good days and bad days.
Today has been a bad day. (Pardon my venting..)

The boys have both been sick. Launi had one heck of a nasty cough and Lijie has it now and its awful. I know its his asthma that is making it worse but the poor kid is out of breath and when he coughs he sounds like a barking dog.
Im pretty sure his other tube fell out and he has fluid in his ear again so..that is disappointing. I feel bad for him. He's talking louder, not seeming to be able to hear us as well. And he's showing signs of being "frustrated" by it. So its been a "sick" week here. On top of that, now IM getting it, and coughing like crazy.

I can't seem to keep up with anything and Im so angry and frustrated about that. My house, which is usually "clean" seems like its a pigsty. I can't keep up with the laundry, dusting, mopping, .....Im just so far behind on everything. Im so exhausted...its a good day if I get diner cooked and Lijie out the door to school.

I don't feel like Im doing this pregnany all that well. I feel like....
"Im not doing it right" and that every other pregnant woman I look at, is 800 miles ahead of me. They seem to keep up with everything, take care of everything that needs to be done.
And I just feel so far behind...and like its taking alot out of me to do the "pregnant" thing. Im just so darn tired all...the time. I feel rather pathetic about it. I feel like I can't DO IT ALL..and Im not used to feeling like that. It brings up feelings of such anxiety for me.

On the flip side I feel so very blessed to be having another baby.
Its been so cool to see Lijie be involved with things, talking about the baby, hearing the heartbeat, etc. It feels like having two, our family will be "complete". Ive started to do some baby shopping...Im excited for the ultrasound so we can find out what we're having. There is so much that I am excited and happy about.
I just wish I was doing it better....

Anyway...that is my 13 week update. Everything for the time being seems like its going well. If I can just wrap my head around everything else, and maybe relax a little bit...then I will feel better.