Im still here.
Had another prenatal and everything looked good!!
I was assaulted by a giant q-tip for my group b strep test, but other than that everything was normal. Measuring good, BP good, head down...etc etc etc.
I was sent with a form to call for another ultrasound and the cranky lady at booking told me that there was absolutely NO appointments left and absolutely NO way they could squeeze me in.
They can fit me in , in the middle of June...which is no help as I will probably have already HAD The baby by then.
I am to consult with my Doctor and find "alternative means." (Whatever the hell that means.)
So some people are in awe over how "tiny" I am.
And others are in awe over how "HUGE" I am.
Annie says it looks like Im going to give birth to a small elephant. (She always makes me feel petite and pretty.)
Whilst others says "My, your not that big."
Perhaps those people are just trying to make me feel better. LOL.
I am smaller than I was with Lijie..I DO know that for sure. And Ive gained way less weight this time as well.
Otherwise Im fine.
Crabby at times, and really uncomfortable...and scared as hell. But fine.
I seem to have a bucket full of worries that I drag around and think about all the time.
~ppd
~the birth
~the pain
~the epidural
~being out of control
~will Lijie handle it well?
~what if I don't love this baby as much as I love Lijie?
~what if we don't bond?
~what if I die and leave launi with 2 children.
~what if something really awful and unexpected happens?
~what if I can't do it?
Those are the fears that I will admit to. Sometimes I wonder if I know what in the hell Im doing.??????????????????????????????????????
We're getting so excited to have her finally here.I am just worried about everything else.
Im pretty much all ready for her. She has a very extensive wardrobe and jewellery. :)
I shall keep updating as we go on!!
xox
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4 comments:
Have you been able to find "alternate means" to get another ultrasound? Maybe get yourself on a cancellation list?
Having babies is a nasty business but you just have to take a deep breath and decide that what will be, will be. You got through it with Lijie and you'll get through it again this time.
Easy for me to say since I still have 3 months to go. LOL
You are definately smaller with this pregnancy. :)
Nic
Nic...LOL!!
I hope that she is "petite".
I had a dream that I had her, but she was actually FYN!!!
I kept telling everyone that I couldn't wait until she was past her "dog" stage. ???!
What the HELL?!?! *UGD*
Thats ok. I had a dream that I was being attacked by tropical fish. And that I was in a leaking submarine with mom. Go fig?\
Nic
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