Today I went for my 37th week prenatal.
And it scared the living poo put of me.
To start off with...in all honesty I wasn't even going to GO to my prenatal because I didn't feel like sitting there 2 hours.
But I went anyway because I knew I would worry and feel bad if I didn't.
As it turned out..I didn't have to wait to long.
I got in within a few minutes and Doc was in the room a few more minutes after that.
I always get my BP done first..and then he measures me...leaving the babies heartbeat (thee best part of the whole visit!!!) till last!
Never, In any of my pregnancies have they ever had trouble finding a heartbeat.
They squish the goo on and as soon as that wand touches mee tummy, voila! Instant heart beat. So I was laying there quite relaxed ready to listen to the heartbeat, thinking to myself that it was probably going to be one of the last times I actually got to hear it.
So he put the wand on my tummy and nothing.
He moves it to the other side and nothing.
Moves it back and forth...up and down....and nothing.
About 30 seconds has gone by and Im starting to panic.
I look up at Doc..who's biting his lip...and concentrating.
He moves the wand all over again...still nothing.
By this time my mouth has gone dry, Im starting to shake and REALLY panic.
Doc looks at me and says,
"Do we know what this baby is?"
I said,
"Its a girl."
He says expectantly..
"And she's been kicking like crazy right?"
I said..
"Yes." trying to think when the last time I felt her move was. I was positive it was at lunch...but maybe I was wrong?
HE moves the wand ever so slightly..noticing my obvious despair and finds a heartbeat.
I start to breath a sigh of relief, when I realise that the heart beat is quite a bit slower than usual. He grabs my wrist and starts to take my pulse.
He shakes his head ever so slightly and says.."Nope. We're picking up YOUR heartbeat..."
By this time Im really starting to get upset.
All the horror stories about still births always start with..."I had a regular Dr's appt and thats when they couldn't find the heartbeat."
He says he wants to try lower on my tummy. He says he has a feeling she is really low and scrunched up down there. I said.."So I shouldn't start panicking yet?"
He smiles and says, "NO!"
He moves down lower, goo's me up again , turns the dopler back on and...nothing.
Tears are stuck in my eyelashes and Im trying to process what is happening..why isn't LAUNI here?
He moves the wand lower and turns it to the side and....FINALLY, he gets the heartbeat.
I let out a huge sigh of relief and almost throw up.
Doc even lets out a sigh and says.."Perfect HB..healthy as a horse!!"
Obvious relief washes over his face.
We talk briefly about what a brat she is!!!
I get in the car and drive home.
I barely make it to the door before I start bawling.
I feel completely traumatized.
*sigh*
Launi comes to my rescue. I tell him what happened as he pats my head, and is very understanding.
I still feel as though my heart has been bruised.
Anyway...thank god she is "okay"...though I definitely could have done without all the drama! Thats a girl for you....
xox
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(((((((((((Dani)))))))))))
And yes that's a girl for ya, always making you panic! I soooooo can't wait to snuggle her and smell her head.
*big hugs to you*
These girls I tell you. Putting their mommies through so much grief to get them.
I was practically in a panic just reading your blog and that was after seeing on motherhood that you had had a scare but everything turned out ok.
She's going to be a Diva and put you through the wringer! LOL
All my boys have given me scares like that but way earlier than you are.
Little lady, you need to stop giving your Mommy heart attacks!
*hugs*
Neese
cripes I hate that!
It must be time soon for that baby to arrive!
Hey Dani Girl!
Just wanted to let you know I have been thinking about you and can't wait to hear the news about your sweet little girlie!!
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