Well I think that its finally starting to sink in that I am pregnant.
You know how for the first week...you kind of walk around in a daze thinking.."Pfft. Right.." and then you catch yourself every few hours going.."OOOH RIGHT. Im pregnant."
I think Im finally starting to get used to the idea. I still , at times, am completely terrified..but its slowly starting to dawn on me that I am going to have another child.
All in all, Ive been feeling pretty good. I had a head ache last night, but Tylenol and going to bed seemed to take care of it. As long as I keep my stomach full and I don't go to long between eating then I don't feel to barfy. Saturday I had a bad day. I woke up feeling so surreal and "spacey". Thank goodness for Launi!! (He is ever so rational, when Im so terribly irrational.) I went back to bed and got a few more hours sleep. But I still got up and felt so tired, depressed and scared.
I thought about staying in bed all day (as thats all I felt like doing..) but I talked myself out of it and decided to get up and get on with my day. We did some shopping, then went to James hockey game. Then after that we went to diner at T&H's. By the time we got home late that night I was completely exhausted, but I was glad that I had gotten off my ass and went and did something to get my mind off everything.
I think I overwhelm myself. I worry constantly about things..and this being a pregnancy after a miscarriage isn't helping. I know that I can't compare that pregnancy to THIS one...but I do. I look for "symptoms", I get up every morning and I think.."Am I still feeling pregnant?" I guess its just something Im gonna have to ride out. I keep telling myself to just let it go and to not WORRY so much about things I have no control over. But that is so much easier said than done.
Symptoms to Date:
-boobies that feel like they've been beat up
-nausea
-mouth pooling with saliva (thank god that is lessening..*blech*)
-can't poop (don't even get me started...*ugd*)
-crazy hungry sometimes, really NOT hungry others
-craving coconut italian soda's (is that a symptom tho? )
-crazy crabby at times. Hate everyone and everything.
AND the best part...Im already wearing SOME maternity clothes.
Weeeeee!!! *insert waving fist*
My whole MIDsection is just bloated and .... *gack*
Its terribly depressing.
Oh well...
Anyway..just a small update.
5.5 weeks pregnant and hanging on.
I hope this baby does to!
xox
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I know just how you feel Dani...when I was pregnant with Claire (after my first m/c) I used to go into the bathroom at work every so often just to 'check' that my boobs were still sore (I'd have these moments of panic when I thought I might suddenly not be pregnant).
Sounds like you have all the symptoms and signs of a very healthy pregnancy...try and relax and enjoy, I'm keeping my fingers crossed for ya! Once the first 3 months have gone by, you will hopefully feel better emotionally (and physically, sounds like food is not your friend at the moment).
Anne
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